A Plea for Help

I am about to make myself incredibly vulnerable, but this matters to me so much.

Understand that I do not know this family. I know nothing beyond what you can read on their webpage, the YouCaring page that is how I learned anything I share here. I personally am not into the homeschool on a homestead as a conservative Christian kind of life. But that doesn't matter--I don't have to make the same choices, just care for those in need.

So, then. When I was a little girl, the sexual abuse that began as early as a week old, due to physical evidence that was written off at the time, didn't lead to punishment for my biological father. I was only 5 years old and so, so, SO very confused about what was good or bad, when and where and how the bad happened, etc. Quite simply, he walked away. And then, when he groomed me enough to think I wouldn't speak up if he did it again--and for almost 3 years he was right--then when I did tell someone I was old enough to be a reliable witness against him in court. But due to some loopholes and a plea bargain, the man served only FIVE years in prison after repeated child rape.

He raped a BABY, people. And did less prison time than tons of people who carried an ounce of weed while committing the bigger crime of not being white. My biological father served fewer years in prison than the total number of years that he abused me (almost 8). His actual time served was barely more than half the time he abused me, actually. Not to mention abuse to others whose story is not mine to tell. And he wrecked our family's life--my mom went from married in a stable dual (both good) income household to single mom of abused kids who needed tons of therapy and the chaos caused her to lose her job and she could barely make ends meet. Even after she met my stepdad we never got out of poverty during the time I lived at home, and my mom and dad worked HARD trying to.

This family is going through the same thing. The father abused rampantly, now is only being asked to pay a measly $35 per kid in child support each month, may serve only 10-12 years in prison, AND the mom is trying to juggle tons of counseling appointments (praise GOD that she is doing that!) and all the needs of 10 children after a horrific experience that wrecked their family. They might lose their home, and she is trying to go to school and get education to get a job to care for them. She is a GOOD mom.

Look at them. Yes, the image is altered so as to protect their identity. But LOOK at them. These gorgeous kids' lives have been turned inside out and upside down. A baby, toddlers, little kids, teens. Just heart wrenching.

Don't even get me started on how angry I am that he gets to retain parental rights to the children too young to say if he abused them or not. Sometimes I REALLY hate our "justice" system, but I can do nothing about that. I'm here for what I CAN do.

So, again admitting I know nothing personal about this family, I want to put this before you and ask you consider giving to them. And if you do, will you tell me privately? Message me on Facebook, check the email link here on my page, or if we are friends IRL, just text me.

Here is why: we've given a couple of times but want to offer to match $250 worth of giving beyond that so that this family gets more help. Even if you give $5, we have tons of people and if 25 people averaged $10 then we could really help them. And if you share the link then maybe others can help them, too.

Please, please help this family out. You may think 10 kids is crazy, but that is their reality and could you imagine the trauma they have been through compounded with losing their home and cramming into some tiny place that fits the budget? My DREAM is that we raise enough that they can not worry about moving for at least a year or two. Maybe make it viral and pay off the house. I dream big.

But please, let's DO this.

Much love from this mama, one who fiercely loves my own children, and is proof that Jesus can redeem the most wrecked childhoods into beautiful adulthoods.

Here is the link:

Help the Silvas


Maternity Pics

Today, five years after the due date of my very first baby--who kept us waiting for another 8 days--I'm here with some major mea culpa-ing to my beloved third.

This pregnancy has been ROUGH. And I'ma tell you straight up that the guilt is real--I have been on bed rest for 3 months. It's been such that I can't even be on KamMak (my MacBook Pro, named after the immortal Kam Chancellor). I feel awful. I know it isn't my fault and I can't do much about it, but Roger and Juliet both had little posts every day for the last 100 days of my pregnancy with each of them where I plan to make a little book for them someday. You can check those out here for Roger and here for Juliet.

Not for Tati.

Oh and that--her name is Tatiana Rose. They each got a "what the name means" post. Again, here is Roger's and here is Juliet's (technically hers has two parts; I provide the link to both!). And Tati will get one...eventually. But not the day after her gender and name reveal like the first two.

So yeah, I am behind the ball with this one. Sister is due in 10 days.

BUT this girl is no less loved. No less wanted. She is ultra special because we thought we couldn't have more kids and our dreams of four kids seemed to be slashed to two. But then we were pregnant and this sweet & fierce girl has been one tough cookie through constant vomiting, the first half of gestation spent crammed into a hotel, constant stress from a litany of health issues related to pregnancy and other unexpected complications. This lady is beloved and wanted. Her big brother and sister talk about her every day and ask when she'll be born.

So, that said, the cramping is starting and I need to get KamMak off my lap. But enjoy these few shots from sweet Tati's maternity and family photoshoot, and if you want to see the whole album you should be able to access it here.

Next post? Lord knows how long it will take but by the grace of God it will be us introducing you to our baby girl!


Bidding 2015 Adieu

There were some seriously low moments in 2015. But then I watched this and felt all the gratitude for just what a beautiful life I am blessed to live.

As many of you know, 16 is my FAVORITE number, and I am convinced 2016 will be AMAZING. So, here is to a new year and hope!

Enjoy this quick little look back!